Broken Hearted Me

This is one of those times when I just want to die. I am here in the office, crying my heart out. I don't know why and I can't understand myself why I had to read Chris' emails. It still hurts so bad. It has been 6 years still it hurts the same.
In reading his emails, I felt his love for me, in my replies the love can be felt also. I guess I am still asking what happened, why it didn't work out. We have so many dreams, our lives are already planned, I just don't understand why we felt apart. Why it didn't work out betwen the two of us? Why did he left me?
When you read our emails, you'll never thought we will end this way. I am trying to find even a single hint that somehow I missed that might tell me that our relatioship was bound to end but I cant.
All these years, it still hurts, I still love him. It is still him that I want. Sometimes, I just want to sleep and never wake up so I wouldn't feel this way.

I thought I had let you go, why does it hurt me so, Gotta get you out of my head. It hurts so bad