My Song

Just last night my boyfriend and I are fighting over the same thing, marriage. We Just don't have the same views. Last night also we agreed that what we have is a dead end relationship. It hurts because we have been together for almost 6 years and yet he still doesn't have a clear direction on where we are going. So I said to myself, I will just take evrything, one day at a time. I came in the office and he gave me this song. I cried because we are about to break up and he still tells me he loves me.

Wala ng Hahanapin Pa

Mayroon siyang estilong kanya lamang.Ang kanyang pagkababae ang dinadahilan.Pagsubok sa pag-ibig walang katapusan‘Di naman daw nagdududa, naniniguro lang
Ewan ko bang kahit ganyan siya,Minamahal ko siya, wala nang hahanapin paKahit ano’ng sabihin ng iba, minamahal ko siya,Wala nang hahanapin pa
‘Di raw nagseselos ngunit nagbibilangNg oras ‘pag ako’y ginagabiAt biglang maamo ‘pag may kailangan‘Pag nakuha na ikaw ay itatabi
Ewan ko ba ngunit kahit ganyan siya,Minamahal ko siya, wala nang hahanapin paKahit ano’ng sabihin ng iba, minamahal ko siya,Wala nang hahanapin pa
‘Di magpapatalo ‘pag mayroong alitan‘Di aamin ng mali, magbabagong-isip lang
Oooh.....

Ewan ko ba ngunit kahit ganyan siya,Minamahal ko siya, wala nang hahanapin paKahit ano’ng sabihin ng iba, sinasamba ko siya,Minamahal ko pa, walang kaduda-duda,Wala nang hahanapin pa (Wala nang hahanapin pa)Wala nang...

Kilig Factor...

Before I used to think that the "kilig factor" in a relationship is just for teenagers and new relationships but then again I remembered my ex-bf. We have been together for 5 years but the Kilig factor was always there.

Then I started to think why I dont have it now in my relationship with Rain, it is because we have been together for almost 6 years now or we are too old for this kind of stuffs. I stopped and thought hard, Rain was never the type who will make you kilig on things that he will do. I was confronted with the reality that I dont have it ever since we started our relationship.

Maybe I am just asking for too much but I dont think so. How hard can it be to be mushy sometimes? to be "baduy" and "corny" paminsan-minsan. This reminded me of a time when I asked Rain to dance with me in our first birthday together while kissing, he was so drunk that he didn't remember it until he saw the video (damn!) There was also a time when I asked him to dance with me here at eastwood because there was music playing he said "don't want to be the center of attraction".

I guess I am just looking for someone else. I am looking for someone who is not afraid to be different from the rest of the world. I want someone who will sweet dance with me in the rain, or whenever there is music, someone who will hug or cuddle with me in the middle of the park, someone who will give me flowers just becasue its wednesday, who will think of ways to be with me even for 30 minutes a day even without doing anything. Someone who is not afraid to laugh and have fun. Someone who will never get tired of kissing, hugging me and holding my hand. Who will love just being in each others arm all day.

I just want someone who will make me feel important, secure and loved.