Seriously?!?!?!?!

I know this is not normal anymore. Last night I keep on getting contractions. I hope my baby is ok. We don't have any money to spend so Rain sold his phone so I can have an ultrasound taken.


At the ultrasound clinic, we were asked why we kept on getting ultrasounds, well aside from we wanted to see the baby, this time it's because it's been a week that I am experiencing back pain and spotting. Although I was told by the office-assigned doctor that I was ok, I cannot help but worry. Ultrasound showed that my cervix is funneling and as a nurse this was never a good sign. The baby is ok.
We went to see Lola Lulu at the Capitol Medical Center, we had to wait because she was in a conference,for some reason I felt so tired.

When I told her I was spotting she immediately examined me and said "o you have to come in na because your water bag is peeping already" at first I thought I didn't hear her correctly so I verified what she meant by "come in" O well, as I have feared she wants me to be admitted. She said she could see my water bag already, she doesn't want me to go home to Pasay for fear that I might give birth in the cab going home. Rain and I talked about it for a second and we both agreed that I will go home to QC instead cause first and foremost, we don't have any money for deposit and I do not have anything with me like clothes, I told my mom that I will only go for a checkup. We were not prepared and I was scared, for me and for my baby.
Lola Lulu said I need to be on complete bed rest, no bathroom priviledges. I was crying on the way to the house. I asked Colleen to fix me some things since going home is not an option already, I then asked Rain to pick her up so that I don't have to think about her. There were alot of things going through my mind at the moment. If I will be on bed rest, how will I tell my parents that I cant go home yet, how will I tell the office that I cant came in for my shift?So many things running through my mind.

Rain came back after fetching Colleen sa Pasay just as his parents arrived. Lola Called them informing them about the situation.Napagalitan kami saying we are suppose to be thinking about the baby. Rain told them wala kami budget para pa admit and he already talked to Aimee about her room. Lalo kaming napagalitan saying na yun pa daw ang inisip namin. I need to be on complete bedrest until the baby comes and that is 11 weeks pa. Paano work ko and I am sure malaki magagastos namin dun, saan kami kukuha pang gastos?

Gabby wag muna please.