Monday, October 6, 2014
Reality....
Where: Office Workstation
When: Oct 6 2014
I came in the office early today, just want to start early so I can get home early...and so I thought but to my surprise our bubble buddy scheduled the training at 4am-6am. So there goes my going home early.
I was listening to the music saved on my phone when Keith Urban's Tonight I wanna cry came on. This was one of the songs, my husband, my boyfriend then, was listening when we were going through the lowest point of our 10-yr relationship. I have never given the lyrics much attention until now. The song really describe him, he was really not the type who shows what he is feeling. During those times we was always drunk and when I see him in the office his eyes were sad and tired. You can easily tell that he cried or was crying. He always have panic attacks. This lead me to read again his blog, how he wrote about the hurt he was feeling, the regret and pain he was going through.
Now that we have gone pass that point, I cannot believe how much pain I caused him and how much he sacrificed. I am teary-eyed now actually. I am thinking how low he must felt during those times.
I am thinking that whenever I feel of giving up on us, because I am tired, or we don't see eye to eye or just simply because I don't feel like "liking" him at the moment, all I need to do is to read his blog posts to put me back on track. To remind me how he fought for us, how much he loves me and our family.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Excited much?
I am trying to plan for both right now. My church wedding will be next year (yes I know super excited) and my baby's birthday will be this June...cramming already
So first things first... Gabby's birthday, need to do the checklist.
1. Theme
-should be fun and colorful
-decor should not be hard to do since I will be doing some fo them, DIY so as not to put alot of the budget there
2. Venue
-should be accessible to both families, probably ortigas
-ample parking
-not to hard to find
3. Date and Time
-definitely a weekend so the kids could come
-not to late in the afternoon baka tulog naman ang celebrant
-safest would be 2pm
4. Budget
- meron ba kami nito?
-sana may sponsors
5. Guestlist
-so far 80 adults and 30 kids na may mababawas pa kaya? (sana)
6. Invitations
-DIY definitely
-I'll ask Kuya to do printing for me
7. Loot bag
- obviously DIVI
8. Giveaway
-to give or not to give?
9.Cake
- FB contacts or CakeKrafts who usually do my cakes?
10. Party Planner
-should I do this alone like I always do or ask help from a professional?
11. Entertainment
-will definitely hire someone for this, I cannot take care of Gabby and at the same time do the games as well.
For the next few post all you will see are about the preps for these events. So here goes
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Let' start over shall we?
Started this blog June of 2007, now between work, play and everything else I somehow got lost and didn't get the chance to update this as often as I would want to. I also believe that I only write when I am feeling extremes, may it be extreme happiness or the other.
Now 2013 I plan to revive my blog, find time to write and with that I have deleted some of my old entries, most of which are about bad memories that I want to forget forever. I want to fill this blog with alot of fun and helpful things, memories I want to cherish my whole life and about random act of kindness and alike.You will definately read things about my kids and my journey as a mom. Now I promise that this will eventually be filled with things that could help other moms in dealing with party preps, mishaps and illness and other things other than mommy-hood.
So here's to starting a new chapter of my life and of this blog. Wish me luck!
Now 2013 I plan to revive my blog, find time to write and with that I have deleted some of my old entries, most of which are about bad memories that I want to forget forever. I want to fill this blog with alot of fun and helpful things, memories I want to cherish my whole life and about random act of kindness and alike.You will definately read things about my kids and my journey as a mom. Now I promise that this will eventually be filled with things that could help other moms in dealing with party preps, mishaps and illness and other things other than mommy-hood.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Seriously?!?!?!?!
I know this is not normal anymore. Last night I keep on getting contractions. I hope my baby is ok. We don't have any money to spend so Rain sold his phone so I can have an ultrasound taken.
At the ultrasound clinic, we were asked why we kept on getting ultrasounds, well aside from we wanted to see the baby, this time it's because it's been a week that I am experiencing back pain and spotting. Although I was told by the office-assigned doctor that I was ok, I cannot help but worry. Ultrasound showed that my cervix is funneling and as a nurse this was never a good sign. The baby is ok.
We went to see Lola Lulu at the Capitol Medical Center, we had to wait because she was in a conference,for some reason I felt so tired.
When I told her I was spotting she immediately examined me and said "o you have to come in na because your water bag is peeping already" at first I thought I didn't hear her correctly so I verified what she meant by "come in" O well, as I have feared she wants me to be admitted. She said she could see my water bag already, she doesn't want me to go home to Pasay for fear that I might give birth in the cab going home. Rain and I talked about it for a second and we both agreed that I will go home to QC instead cause first and foremost, we don't have any money for deposit and I do not have anything with me like clothes, I told my mom that I will only go for a checkup. We were not prepared and I was scared, for me and for my baby.
Lola Lulu said I need to be on complete bed rest, no bathroom priviledges. I was crying on the way to the house. I asked Colleen to fix me some things since going home is not an option already, I then asked Rain to pick her up so that I don't have to think about her. There were alot of things going through my mind at the moment. If I will be on bed rest, how will I tell my parents that I cant go home yet, how will I tell the office that I cant came in for my shift?So many things running through my mind.
Rain came back after fetching Colleen sa Pasay just as his parents arrived. Lola Called them informing them about the situation.Napagalitan kami saying we are suppose to be thinking about the baby. Rain told them wala kami budget para pa admit and he already talked to Aimee about her room. Lalo kaming napagalitan saying na yun pa daw ang inisip namin. I need to be on complete bedrest until the baby comes and that is 11 weeks pa. Paano work ko and I am sure malaki magagastos namin dun, saan kami kukuha pang gastos?
Gabby wag muna please.
At the ultrasound clinic, we were asked why we kept on getting ultrasounds, well aside from we wanted to see the baby, this time it's because it's been a week that I am experiencing back pain and spotting. Although I was told by the office-assigned doctor that I was ok, I cannot help but worry. Ultrasound showed that my cervix is funneling and as a nurse this was never a good sign. The baby is ok.
We went to see Lola Lulu at the Capitol Medical Center, we had to wait because she was in a conference,for some reason I felt so tired.
When I told her I was spotting she immediately examined me and said "o you have to come in na because your water bag is peeping already" at first I thought I didn't hear her correctly so I verified what she meant by "come in" O well, as I have feared she wants me to be admitted. She said she could see my water bag already, she doesn't want me to go home to Pasay for fear that I might give birth in the cab going home. Rain and I talked about it for a second and we both agreed that I will go home to QC instead cause first and foremost, we don't have any money for deposit and I do not have anything with me like clothes, I told my mom that I will only go for a checkup. We were not prepared and I was scared, for me and for my baby.
Lola Lulu said I need to be on complete bed rest, no bathroom priviledges. I was crying on the way to the house. I asked Colleen to fix me some things since going home is not an option already, I then asked Rain to pick her up so that I don't have to think about her. There were alot of things going through my mind at the moment. If I will be on bed rest, how will I tell my parents that I cant go home yet, how will I tell the office that I cant came in for my shift?So many things running through my mind.
Rain came back after fetching Colleen sa Pasay just as his parents arrived. Lola Called them informing them about the situation.Napagalitan kami saying we are suppose to be thinking about the baby. Rain told them wala kami budget para pa admit and he already talked to Aimee about her room. Lalo kaming napagalitan saying na yun pa daw ang inisip namin. I need to be on complete bedrest until the baby comes and that is 11 weeks pa. Paano work ko and I am sure malaki magagastos namin dun, saan kami kukuha pang gastos?
Gabby wag muna please.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Monday, January 2, 2012
Great way to start the new year
The scars of the last year are still fresh but are slowly healing. I cannot expect that the minute I said " I do" everything will be smooth sailing.
Early this morning Rain and I were arguing over someone and honestly I cannot exactly remember what it is about. Since I didn't get my period as expected I became worried, pregnancy test says NEGATIVE so it has to be something else.
Went to the OB at 1pm and was advised to have a trans-V ultrasound done, to my surprise I am 4-5 weeks pregnant...Honeymoon baby.While I was doing these things, the arguing continued.
I was on my way to work, already late as my shift starts a 2pm, Rain called furious since I was not replying to his texts, then I slipped, "I am 4-5 weeks pregnant" he stopped talking then suddenly I can hear him almost crying "sigurado ka ba? wag mo akong bibiruin" had to answer calmly "Nasa akin ang ultrasound kung gusto mo makita". This was not the way I wanted o tell him of the news but I slipped. We forgot that we were arguing earlier and he said he will meet me at the office right a way, mind you his shift starts at 11pm.
Upon reaching the office,my co-worker Fatz kinda got the hint that I went to see the OB and ask, "positive na?" and I said "4-5 weeks". After a few hours, Rain came and I handed him the results, teary eyed he hugged me and I saw in his eyes how happy he was.
Now...that's how to start a great year wouldn't you agree?
Early this morning Rain and I were arguing over someone and honestly I cannot exactly remember what it is about. Since I didn't get my period as expected I became worried, pregnancy test says NEGATIVE so it has to be something else.
Went to the OB at 1pm and was advised to have a trans-V ultrasound done, to my surprise I am 4-5 weeks pregnant...Honeymoon baby.While I was doing these things, the arguing continued.
I was on my way to work, already late as my shift starts a 2pm, Rain called furious since I was not replying to his texts, then I slipped, "I am 4-5 weeks pregnant" he stopped talking then suddenly I can hear him almost crying "sigurado ka ba? wag mo akong bibiruin" had to answer calmly "Nasa akin ang ultrasound kung gusto mo makita". This was not the way I wanted o tell him of the news but I slipped. We forgot that we were arguing earlier and he said he will meet me at the office right a way, mind you his shift starts at 11pm.
Upon reaching the office,my co-worker Fatz kinda got the hint that I went to see the OB and ask, "positive na?" and I said "4-5 weeks". After a few hours, Rain came and I handed him the results, teary eyed he hugged me and I saw in his eyes how happy he was.
Now...that's how to start a great year wouldn't you agree?
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